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Saturday, July 31, 2004
And so another week gone by. Seoul-ed with Celest and Joey on Thursday. Till next Tuesday. I'll be like that -> ): Shopped on Friday with Gina. We bought Roxy stuff. -Grins. I bought 1. Roxy wallet. 2. Roxy pencilcase. 3. Roxy handbag. And Gina bought 1. Roxy cap. 2. Roxy handbag. Tell me. What could be better than that. And to add up to it, I've been grinning my jaws off ever since Friday. Like this -> =D I can hear the fireworks going on and on. Reminding me. It's been a year already.
When I was just a little girl my momma used to tuck me into bed and she'd read me a story. It always was about a Princess in distress and how a guy would save her and end up with the glory. I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I want to be. Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me. I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody to come and set me free. I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting, for a handsome prince to come and save me, on a horse of white. Unless we're riding side by side. Don't want to depend on no one else, I'd rather rescue myself. Someday I'm going to find someone who wants my soul, heart, and mind, who's not afraid to show that he loves me. Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am. Don't need nobody taking care of me, I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me. When I give myself then it has to got to be. an equal thing. I can slay my own dragons. I can dream my own dreams. My knight in shining armour is me.
There's a place where everyone can be happy. It's the most beautiful place in the whole fucking world. It's made of candy canes and planes and bright red choo-choo trains. And the meanest little boys and the most innocent little girls. And you know I wish that I could get there. It's a road that I have not found. And I wish you the best of luck. Drop a card or letter to my side of town. Because there's no time for fussing and fighting. I'm amazed at the hate that you can send and You painted my entire world. But I don't have the turpentine to clean what you have soiled. And I won't forget it. There's a place where everyone can be right. Even though you remain determined to be opposed. Admittance requires no qualifications: It's where everyone has been and where everybody goes. So please try not to be impatient. For we all hate standing in line. And when the farm is good and bought, you'll be there without a thought. And eternity, is a long fucking time.
Well you're not the person I know anymore. I saw the messages you sent. If you can do such a thing to someone whom you were once close to, and for no apparent reason, you're scary. Grins. My new and latest name: Fatty fat. Just call me that.
Eat shit, Candice. The frienship was meant to be. After all. Mom and Sis are coming back TODAY. -Screams- I couldn't possibly be any more excited than I am now. -Runs to airport- Simply can't wait for night to come. And may I announce that I'm turning over a new leaf [again]. History CA today and I just wasn't in the mood to study last night. Failed Biology badly too. My brain's dead. Hasn't been functioning for far far too long. I saw you today.
Her smile drives me mad. We could have anticipated something like this. Yes, what Cheryl said is true. This friendship wasn't meant to, right from the start. WELL. (: Good mood. Finally getting to eat my Char Siew Nools tomorrow. Grins like mad. Seems like the diet's off. Been pigging out only too often and Dad's pampering me like crazy. Sniggers. Anyway, I think you're an ugly biatch. Who am I to comment, but who are you to? (: I'm going to HongKong for a Roger Kwok search. Join me, anyone?
No, nothing's going right. It's sick the way you keep on acting. Where's somebody when I need someone to talk to. Anyone at all. I'm surrounded with people who pretend.
I don't pretend. Don't want to, anymore. You don't lie to your own friends. I don't see how there can be 'true friendship' when you can just lie without thinking twice about what you're saying. Your fakeness's catching up with you. Two: I know well enough what's been going on, thank you very much. I can't make it? Sure I can't, with you around, oh it'll be difficult, trust me. Honey, I miss the old-you. When you were trustable. When you were clean.
Lying, denying surrounds me. Your mask is so thick. I can't even see the true you anymore. Layers and layers going on and on. How fake you seem to me. Those words you said before. Innocent as you seem to be, I've never seen anyone as horrible as you. Dirty. And the ugliness of your insides are showing. Exposed. I pretend not to care. Pretending not to know you're there. When inside I'm dying. Every time my phone goes, I'm wishing to hear from you. Everytime I look at the time, being 0000, 1111, 2222; I make silly but hopeful wishes. But I've to hold on to what I've left. Can't give in. And THANKS alot. You really made things easier. What's so wrong. Anyway. I'm on a major diet! [Shrieks.]. Sick of unnecessary fats and ugh-ness. Slimdom, here I come. (: Life isn't all that but I'm good.
I've no idea what I'm doing, sitting here publishing and republishing my blog, with the different images and colours. The rest of them are probably hard-core mugging away. I need to get down to it. Soon. Can anyone see what I'm typing. Lol.
I've been given another reason to hate my life. Mr Sickening-Stalker-Vs-BOY followed me again today. Hello. Reality check. Number 1. I don't go for guys with short pants. 2. It's sickening. And I hate it. 3. Compare him with Golden-Haired-NAP-Boy. The difference, plenty. Similarities, none. [ Although G.H.N.A.P.B. is only about let's say 12 or so? ] And 4. Mom's given you a huge dressing down before. So you should just get lost. Any of you spot a Vs BOY [ Short uhhh hair, high and long socks, blue bag (which he carries real high and it's probably a free gift or something)], do not approach. Best if you could call the cops and get him arrested. [ He truly deserves it. -Snorts- ]. Back to the more important things in life. I'm in love with the bacon Mom cooks! (: And probably every other stuff that she knows how to. Nothing like 'Mom's cooking'. Mom and Sis [ are you reading this? ] will be leaving on Friday. No one to tease [ about having bad hair day and other unmentionables ] and to bully. Tzp: Eye lub chew! [ Lol, and yucks. ]. Anyhow, comment box is up. Please give me something to look forward to everyday.
Shouldn't have eaten the ice cream. [Been holding back for so long, whatever tempted me.]. Mr Two-day Diarrhoea's back again, after stopping for one pathetic day. Sniffs. Well. I'm back to mugging. Finished my literature. [As if I'll still remember by September]. It's a start. Aj here I come. -Marches- [Or Mj or Cj]. Ok whatever.
How gross is this template. Haha. Plain and uhh. And NO ONE CAN COMMENT NOR TAG. Cos I've removed them all. LOL. Plus the counter. Smirks. Would it be so wrong.. Well. The further it seems to me.
He webbed away from us. Again. Spiderman. 2. Can we please? And not for ONE moment did she fall into your 'trap'. Give me back my point of view cos I just can't think for you.. Talk to me. Even if it's just to say goodbye.
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